Friday, November 21, 2008

I have decided to follow ...

I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.


That song always brings me back to a place of innocence, simplicity, and renewal. I suppose it is because when I was 7 I walked down an aisle to that song and let Jesus have my heart. I was in complete surrender, even at a young age. I can remember being emotional, mainly because it was the first major decision I made in my life. It wasn't even hard either... the hardest part was walking down that aisle in front of a room of a couple hundred people....
It is easy to follow Jesus in our privacy, but in front of people, it is not easy.

At least for me it is not, but by the actions of those I know, and those I don't even, it seems as though it is hard for them as well. Repentance seems to be old fashioned now. People don't take responsibility for their actions, mistakes, irresponsibility, etc and then they think that with enough time or words, things are just normal or ok. I don't understand that. It is hard to admit fault, to own up to our mistakes and sin. we are called to do it though. I can say this because I have had to do it, and I have done it. There is a difference between needing to and actually doing it.

I feel as though, our country is in this bailout mode because of the lack of responsibility of the country's people. I have a very miniscule amount of debt, besides my school loans for college. It isn't even about debt and money so much as it is about taking responsibility for ourselves in general. I'll save the political realm for those who enjoy it, I personally don't, however, I have just been so frustrated by the lack of responsibility taken by ourselves, for ourselves. Quit blaming others for the things you've done. Own up to it, lay it down and leave it at the cross, but be willing to suffer the consequences for the wrong doings, and LEARN FROM IT. learning from it, well, takes effort and a desire and commitment. woah, scary word. commitment.

Is anyone really committed to anything anymore? Everyone seems to bail when things get tough or hard to swallow. Whether it is your job, your marriage, your relationships with parents, siblings, friends, the church, etc. OOPS, this is too tough or we don't like them or her or him or that...

All in all... choose whom you will follow. don't sway from it, for any reason.... hard or not. it is not worth being cool or popular or different, to choose the life without Jesus Christ. Choose to be set a part, clean, not perfect but whole. Admit to your sin, accept the grace given to you, and then live like you mean to follow Jesus. If you don't want to follow Jesus, don't pretend to. Save us all the crap and just be honest about it. If you want to follow Jesus, also be honest about it and be real.

blessings.
s

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Seasons

Every Season
Nichole Nordeman


Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring